Real-Life Stories from members
Last Modified 2009-12-01 22:49:35Personal Stories From No More Panic Members
Here are a few personal stories from sufferers of Panic,Anxiety, Phobias & OCD.
I would like to thank everyone who has taken the time to tell me their story and allowing me to publish it here. If you would be prepared to write a few lines about your own experiences then I would love to hear from you. You can remain completely anonymous if you wish. Please click on the link below to email me your story (please state clearly in the email that you want your story added to this page and whether you want your name added or not): Email Me at (nomorepanic@btinternet.com) Please note that I am unable to accept emails about personal problems at this email address due to the very heavy work-load I have. Please join the message forum. This does not apply if you are simply sending me a personal story to add.
About nine years ago I had a miscarriage and a ectopic pregnancy in a matter of six months, then my relationship broke down. I was single for about a year and met and fell in love with my current partner. A couple years into our relationship we was having problems with his children who I adore and love very much. It all became too much for me and I couldn’t sleep, night after night I started pacing up and down sometimes I was still pacing when my partner got up for work. I started getting pains in most parts of my body and generally started feeling unwell. One day I was sat on my settee at home watching TV when I felt like my heart had stopped...... click here to read more
The feeling of going crazy, the horrible physical symptoms, the suffering in silence, the hiding it from everyone, the need of safe place/people, the fear of loosing control, the dread of dying, etc... etc... The list is endless and the remedy for a solution seems absent. Of course you all know I'm referring to those two words that so many people misunderstand for something that happens when one is particularly stressed, PANIC ATTACKS. Oh how stupid people can be! I still get asked "Why are you having a panic attack, what are you panicking about?" They simply don't get that its not a choice and that we are not stressing about anything in particular and no, we cant just snap out of it!!! Most importantly we are not attention seeking!!!..... click here to read more
I had my first panic attack at 11 years old, due to being badly bullied at school, that only lasted for short a while, my teenage years were pretty good, out socialising etc, with friends, I settled down with my partner and had a kid when I was 18 then bang panic attacks, sweats, shakes, felt I was going out of control, it was horrible...... click here to read more
My first panic attack took place in Norway in July 2003. It was a Sunday morning and I had been at a wedding the night before. I had drunk quite a bit of alcohol, had very little sleep and, when I woke up, had lots of coffee. Needless to say, these three things didn’t mix very well at all!! I was sitting at a café with my boyfriend and his family when suddenly I felt my head ‘closing down’..... click here to read more
Put it like this, in my twenties I played with brass bands, jazz bands, played on television, (I'm not famous at all by the way) flew to Manchester on my own every other weekend, had a date with a rich and famous musician in Windsor, lived on my own, travelled frequently on my own round Ireland, loved every flippin' second of it. Met a gorgeous bloke, had a baby, moved to England and lived there for 2 years and then came back to Ireland when I turned 30 to have have our second child nearer to my family and then bang! A miscarriage. I seemed to recover fine and went on to fall pregnant a few months later thankfully..... click here to read more
For over the last few months I have thought that I was possibly having a heart attack, but now after reading your posts I feel that I am having panic attacks...... click here to read more
My first panic attack was at an army camp when I was 15. I was so tired from the activities and night hikes, my body just went crazy and I flipped out. I spent the night in the infirmary and my life changed forever...the next week I went on a family holiday to Canada and it was terrible. I remember having attacks all the time, travelling was a nightmare..... click here to read more
I was having the time of my life on a working holiday with friends, I was 23 and nothing bothered me, I just loved having fun. Then I found out that my Dad had Mesothelioma (cancer) and would shortly die. Up until this point my family life was perfect and my Dad was the most loving amazing easy going Dad, I really did not have any problems to speak about...... click here to read more
Hi my first encounter with this was not to long ago. I started feeling this kind of sickness during my last year in elementary school. I never wanted to tell my parents, because either way they would think it is just a stage of growing up or undergoing the teenage stage in life. But in me I knew I wasn't crazy and I knew I needed help...... click here to read more
It started on September 2003, the 2 year anniversary of the 9/11. I went up to form room at school and all of a sudden, I couldn't breathe, my limbs became stiff. I didn't know what was happening 2 me ..... click here to read more
Coming to this website and reading all the stories, I was in hopes that I would find someone who has been through the exact thing that I have........but unfortunately life aint that easy. It all started when I was 12...... click here to read more
My “panic attack†starts at the end of august 2003. It's consequences on me was disastrous and terrible. I have never dreamt myself of having this attack and seeing psychiatrist and psychologist..... click here to read more
December 2001, me and some friends were partying at my sisters house and we were all really drunk some of them were taking drugs also. My boyfriend at the time had one too many joints and one too many to drink and he started being violently sick all over the place. No one seemed to bother except me, I ran into a bedroom and lay there shaking. I did not know what the heck was going on I just wanted to go to sleep and wake up feeling better but I couldn't sleep, all I could hear was my boyfriend being sick in the toilet, I thought he was dying and would choke... click here to read more
This is the story of how I suffered from panic attacks and increasing weight for 17 years. Neither I nor my doctors suspected that the two conditions might be related. Over my many years of illness, because of moving house, I was treated for anxiety by a total of twelve medical experts, under whose care my panic attacks became progressively worse, and more frequent. I had consultations about my weight with my GPs and, despite following their advice, it increased from 140 pounds to over 300.... click here to read more
My story starts back some 22 years ago... As seems so common my anxiety was undiagnosed for several years but my problems began when I was 17 and still at school. By the age of 20 I found myself unable to work and living a home with my parents. I tried many different treatments and spent time in hospital undergoing behavioural therapy however I just became worse and worse.... click here to read more
I am a 33 yr old female. In 1999 I fell pregnant with my partner who at that time I was only with for 4 months before I fell pregnant, he was kind, gentle and everything you could wish for. However during my pregnancy he became possessive and wanted me to get to work 10 mins late everyday, because I shouldn't like my job so much, he made me meet him every lunch time even though I only got 1/2hr and was in mad rush there and back.... click here to read more
This is rather a boring story, but we all start our anxiety from somewhere, so I'm going to be detailed about it. I have always been an anxious type, liking everything perfect, striving in business, and being in control at all times. Although I am gentle and understanding and have this ability to 'feel' how other people 'feel'... click here to read more
I am 16 and have been diagnosed with an Anixety disorder and been out on Luvox to help me overcome my anxiety.
My first experience with my anxiety that I can remember is when I was about 10. I was sitting in the living room, just watching television when all of a sudden I had this overwhelming feeling, a feeling of dread, I had no idea what it was and why it was happening and that made it worse.....click here to read more
I was born on fifth of February in 1963; I lived all my life in Saudi Arabia. Born in a Moslem family and I have a strong sense of belonging to this civilization yet I have many disagreements with most of Moslems. I am a happy active person with no inhibitions or preoccupations whatsoever. I was hardly affected or influenced by my surrounding. I used to adopt a style of life that contradicts with the Islamic concept of life. I used to lead a healthy life and the only complains I had were with my digestion system as I have esophagus hernia now and my snoring is pretty annoying for my wife.....click here to read more
March 2003 I was put on Oxazepam because I suffered greatly from anxiety, probably caused mainly by having no contact with my kids. I experienced a weird sensation in my stomach, had the feeling that my throat was held tight, sometimes my heartbeat increased and could clearly be felt. I was extremely restless and felt like I had to run away or do something.... click here to read more
I was first diagnosed after my divorce although I realise now that I suffered from an early age. I remember as a child that when ever I used to go out for family meals that I would start to feel sick and would want to leave the table. Once I was in a bathroom or public toilet the fear would subside.....click here to read more
Yesterday was a terrible day, not so much for me, but more so for my best friend who suffers panic attacks in the water. We were on jet ski together wearing life vests. We picked a Friday afternoon (7-11-03 a day ill never forget) to go to Tucker town reservoir in NC, with not many people on the lake. We took turn turns riding the jet ski from the bank of the lake. My friend Robert flipped the jet ski and was 50 yards from me off shore. He grab the jet ski and was ok, but then I could observe his change. He leaned back let go of the jet ski and went into his panic mode(the last thing he said " I need help"!)..... click here to read more
I first experienced my first panic attack back in November 1999.I should have recognised the symptoms as I had been to my doctor who had said I was suffering with stress. Who me ..stress I have run a very busy Banking department with over 100 staff for the past 8 years... surely not stress that's for wimps!!!......it hit me for six. I became too frightened to go out in case I had a panic attack and when I did it was an ordeal just to go to the local shops and get a newspaper..... click here to read more
I suffered my first panic attack in 1991 at the age of 20. I don't even think I knew it was a panic attack - all I knew was that I felt really sick and I had to get out of the club I was in. I hadn't been drinking, but I was performing as a singer in a band and I was due to go on stage...something that I'd done hundreds of times before with only 'normal' stage fright.... click here to read more
I can’t remember when I had my first panic attack. I just know that I have been suffering them for years. I didn’t realise what was happening to me for, it must be around 6 or 7 years!! I am a known hypochondriac and because when I started to feel ill, I thought the worst. I have had brain tumours, cancers of everywhere. You name it, I have had it. Looking back, I’m quite sad as you have said, all them wasted years.... click here to read more
When other people talk about their high school years, their tales usually include parties and vacations and the trouble they got into - and all the different friends they had. None of them include stories about the night your mother suggested bringing one of your friends along on your annual family vacation and you ended up sitting on the floor of your bathroom, rocking back and forth, convinced you were going crazy..... click here to read more
I think my problems began when I was 13 years old. I wouldn't have described my family life as ideal. I had been raised by my grandparents after my parents divorce, my father was distant (although he only lived 10 minutes drive away) and my mother spent a great deal of her time in pubs and with boyfriends. A little while before my 13 birthday we (my mother, brother and I) moved out of my grandparents into a house of our own. The first time I noticed something was wrong was when I began having difficulty going to school.... click here to read more.
Being in athletics for 15 years and being a top flight distance runner winning two county XC titles and helping my county to a inter-county world trails gold medal and living a full life touring the country in races I though I would be the last person to have panic attacks, until a year ago last summer when things just fell apart for me.... click here to read more
I'm 31 years old, and live with my partner and son in Scotland, UK. I've been with my partner for 6 years and my son is almost 2, before my son was born I kept what you would call 'bad company' we used to do drugs, not injecting or the likes, smoking pot and taking 'E'. You cannot begin to imagine how much I regret this now...... click here to read more
Looking back as a child I believe now I suffered from OCD it would take me an hour to get to bed after I had done all my rituals, like checking under my bed, checking my shoes were in certain positions in the cupboard!, touching the walls... and if I wanted the loo I would have to go through the same stupid rituals again... Well after five years of this, it left me and then the panic's started around the age of 18.... click here to read more
Just before last Xmas 2001, I stopped gambling. Even today, a year later, I'm not too sure if it was an addiction or an O.C.D. I do tend to see it as a bit of both. I'm not sure why I stopped then, maybe I got lucky for a change. I was delighted though, I had tried to stop for years. I'd been going hard at it for about 12 years, plenty of debts and not very much of anything else to show for it at the finish.... click here to read more
Up to the age of 19 I had always been happy, confident and was the life and soul of the party. At the age of 18, I passed my driving test, got a placement at university and travelled across the United Sates by myself. I thought I had the world at my feet..... click here to read more
My first Panic Attack was at the airport waiting to board a plane to the Algarve. Not that I was afraid of flying I'm not never have been, but for some reason I could not get on that plane. My husband said "Come on you will be alright when you are on the plane". He couldn't have been more wrong. The moment I reached the top of the plane steps and saw everyone in their seats looking at me, I wanted to turn round and run. We sat in our seats and as soon as the plane started down the runway I just wanted to go home. That two and a half hour flight was the worst experience of my life... click here to read more
I feel like I'm going to vomit (but I never have). I start to shake more, my arms, legs, and my head are now involved. I have this terrible feeling of fear, but I don't know what I'm afraid of. I want to run, but I'm shaking too badly to move. My vision starts to blur, and the room begins to spin, not my whole field of vision, just parts of it..... click here to read more
I never wanted this illness and I would never wish it upon anyone. It is frustrating, scary, annoying, debilitating and very hard to cope with. When I get a Panic Attack I want the world to swallow me up so I don't have to deal with it. I want to bury my head in the sand and never come out, sometimes I want to die.... click here to read more
Hi, I've made this website to try to help other people with Panic Attacks. I
suffered Panic Attacks myself for 3 years, so I know what you're going through.
I am recovering well and so can you ....
(Sharon has agreed that I can link to her site for her story: www.panicfree.co.uk)
September 1996 I had my first panic attack I had just split up from my girlfriend, that night I had my first attack. I remember feeling dizzy and my vision went blurred. Time seemed to stand still my breathing went shallow, I thought I was going to die. That moment my ex girlfriend knocked on the door and punched me in the face shouting and swearing at me. My hearing was buzzing I could not understand what she was saying to me. She turned around and kicked me in the shin and walked out.... click here to read more
