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Dawn’s Story

Hi my name is Dawn aka crazylady.My childhood for the first 11 yrs was dominated by physical and mental abuse.The abuser’s where my parents. I was sexually abused by a family member and one of my “friends”. When I was 11 yrs old my mum moved us out of our home on 25 th August and married her new husband on 7 th September.

From then on my abuse was mental only this time it was my mother and her hushand.At the age of 12 It was thought I had some form of hearing loss. At the age of 14 I was told I had no hearing in my right ear and there was nothing any 1 could do. I took an overdose shortly after .I left home to work a way at 16 and 17 yrs old and every time I came home my mothers husband made my life hell. I don’t no how old I was when I first felt like I was in my body looking out.But as with my childhood and my deafness I didn’t know any different. All I ever wanted was to be told I was loved and wanted. After a very brief marriage lasting less than 2 yrs I was on my own again.My husband of the time continued with the physical and menatal abuse.(what did I expect) Then on 20th September 1991. I met the man who was 2 turn my life a round.I was so careful no one was going to hurt me again.We married on 17 th October 1992. I put Richard through hell.He never hit me he told me he loved me even when I was off my head with depression.But no one out side of the family took me seriously. It was hormones,it was the stress of having a child with special needs. 6 yrs ago I changed GPS.She listened to me.She saw I had a problem. 6 wks later I had a breakdown. 2 yrs ago I was told I had Bipolar.What a relive I’m seen by my nutty doc every 2 maths. I’m on lithium,venlafaxine,throphan(spelt wrong)and seroxate. Bipolar carnt be quered,and I still have big downers.But I’m still here. Bipolar has a big effect on my marriage and my kids. But with all the help/friendship and support that I have received from NMP and the love f my hushand I will make it. Bipolar wont beat me. I don’t know if this is any good Nic.It did me good wrighting it and I could have wrote loads more. Yours Dawn