New to depression. Old to anxiety

Hi. I have suffered with HA for 12-14 years. I have usuall always suffered with symptoms of the HA but recently I have been dealing a lot with depression and I have to say I’m frightened really frightened. My life seems to chasing me downs I have lots going on. Me and my husband don’t get in that well at the moment, my children have had a lot if sickness I fell and hurt my back weeks ago and it’s still not great and that’s getting me down a lot. I hate everything and everyone I want to be in my own but I want people to notice me(I know very selfish) and be with me. I just don’t know what I want, how I feel. I just feel lost and very very angry and so sad but I just don’t know why. I feel like I’m letting my kid down so much. I don’t even want to be around them and that’s bad for me. I adore them and I hate the way I feel. I am just so lost with all these new feelings. I’ve had my antidepressants changed and my gp is aware. I JUST HATE MYSELF.

This might help you.
Stay in touch. Don't withdraw from life.
Be more active. Take up some form of exercise.
Face your fears.
Don't drink too much alcohol.
Try to eat a healthy diet.
Have a routine.
Take a break and dont think ofanything just you and only you. Do it for yourlsef.

THank you for ball by the one person to respond

Hi Donna This happens sadly on a forum I too don't like it. First up over the 12 or so years of having HA what have you managed to do about it? Are you on meds/therapy? Can I ask what has triggered your newish condition depression off? I have had depression for a long time been on meds many years ago came off them as they were making me worse! and now waiting for therapy. I lack motivation so don't do much each day and thrive better when I have visitors which isn't often :weep: So understand the depression side and understand how HA works too.

Yes try not to isolate your self keep busy, if you are motivated, don't dwell on your depression, and distract your self ATB