Resenting needing to take medications

Does anyone else ever feel really bad about needing medications? It scares me that I need antidepressants. I've been gradually reducing my dose of sertraline due to side effects and a feeling of "maybe I don't need this much any more" but now I'm back on 50mg a day and I feel like crying all the time. I feel like the 'real me' underneath all the medication is a mess, an empty shell that can't function.

I am also on 30mg lansoprazole for acid reflux, coming up to 2 years on that, and I still have reflux problems. I can't eat for at least half an hour after waking up and taking it. It feels tedious, my daily routine, taking sertraline, lansoprazole, mebeverine and loratadine every morning as soon as I wake up. Sometimes I just want to be a 'normal' 22 year old and jump out of bed and get on with the day.

I can't sleep without the help of medication either. I have 3 different types of sleeping pill and I try not to use them but I need one at least every other day. If I don't sleep enough I feel sick and panicky and awful.

I want the old me back, or to be someone else who 'works', I'm so fed up.

Just wanted to vent that, see if anyone else feels the same. I am aware that there are people on more medication and in worse situations. But I am stuck being me and I see other people my age staying up all night drinking and I can't enjoy any of it and I'm fed up.

i can relate im dying 2 be me again!!!! but i jus think no 1 likes the fact that we have 2 take meds in order 2 get better! which in some cases people dont they use therepy and other technics .
i got very angry at myself for having 2 take medication i thought why cant i fight this myself im not a weak person , but eventually i realised i am fighting it myself wiv a bit of support from my meds :)
hope this helps
kt xxx
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I'm in pretty much the same situation as you - as are many others here, Unspoken. I'm also on sertraline and other pain meds.

I used to feel the same about taking them but my opinion now is that if they work and make a positive difference to your life, then there really is nothing to be concerned about. If the meds aren't really helping though, then it's likely that we'll feel miserable and negative about everything.

It really sounds to me as though the sertraline hasn't yet helped to lift your depression/anxiety and is something you should look at. Of course I understand that the side effects are a pain in the bum but it really is a price worth paying for if it helps you regain normality to your life. It has for me, and to be perfectly honest, I still get fed up with some of the persistent side effects, but it's something you must weigh up in your mind. Everything comes at a price ... but in my opinion and circumstances it's one that's worth paying for.

i feel the same, its soo hard it does get better. what medication do you take. im also meant to take lansoprazole 60mg for reflux but am unsure as i also take citalopram and zopiclone.

what are your reasons for feeling panicky. talking on here helps. you're not alone x

Hey people, I think you really should go back to your GP regarding the Lansoprazole. I was given it by an ENT doctor who saw that I had excess stomach acid :( Thing is taking it long-term can cause all sorts of other problems :( It has a kind of rebound effect. I wonder if maybe Ranitidine might be better? Or maybe try taking pre-biotics instead? Conventional medication tends to only "mask" symptoms, it doesn't cure them :( The same goes for ad's I think... How about maybe trying St.John's Wort for a while?
I have all kinds of stuff going on since taking and stopping the Lansoprazole :( Personally I don't really trust these meds :( x

Hi. I saw a new GP (my old one retired) who said I should try reducing the dose of lansoprazole. So I've been on 15mg a day instead of 30mg for about 5 days now. Not noticed too many problems so far. The GP asked if I'd had any investigations done like an entroscopy and I said no I'd never been referred, just diagnosed based on symptoms, and she still didn't bother referring me to a specialist. I guess they're just trying to save money wherever they can :(

I'm back on 100mg of sertraline as well. Apparently I can't have amitriptyline with sertraline long term, which is annoying, because taking a tiny dose of amitriptyline helps me with sleep. All the GP will give me is Phenergan, which doesn't work as well and makes me feel low, moody and light headed the next day.

I think I will keep trying with the medications but it seems like once you start taking medication, you just end up with more and more, treating the side effects of other medications.