Severe depression / Panic attacks

Hi.

I'm a newcomer to this forum.

Nice to meet you all.

I've been struggling with depression for many years now. Recently, it developed into full-blown anxiety-attack, panic attacks sometimes.

I have been seeing a psychotherapist since June last year. It helps. He knows his job.

But......I am still far from getting better.

One aspect of my problem is I live in a country where this issue is still not handled efficiently : FINLAND. The issue of depression is widely-known here, but they have no effective methods of dealing with it.........besides pumping one full of pills.

I moved here 11 years ago. The adjustment was cruel. A few times I thought about packing it in, and leaving. But, I stuck with it. I learned the local language........got a full-time job......tried my best to involve myself in social networks, so I could meet and make new friends. etc, etc

I thought this would solve everything. It sure made it easier, but there was so much lacking. My biggest problem is a lack of friends. I have nobody to whom I can turn to for help...........or just someone to call up and talk, meet for coffee. Just a friendly face.

I'm a 38-year-old, recently-divorced male, living alone

I am still lucid enough to realize that the "living alone" part is probably the worst aspect of my life now. I find that I cannot stay in the apartment more than 5 minutes without falling into an abyss-like anxiety episode, where I lose touch with reality.

Lately, I have been trying my best to avoid coming home to early. I go to work, and then I am done, I try to stay outside as much as I can. I even walk home sometimes (a distance of 15 km), just so that I wont get home too early, where I'll be alone again. When I eventually get home, I am too tired to do anything besides take a shower and collapse into bed

Weekends are the worst. Having no job to go to on saturdays and sundays, I simply go out. Walk.........jog...........sit in a cafe or bar...........anything, to avoid staying home (((((

I came on this forum to talk. Meet like-minded people, and just talk :(

I cant talk to anyone where I live (besides my therapist)

Welcome to the forum! This site has provided me with so much support. I really feel much better since joining. You have found the right place. :hugs:

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Originally Posted by RoseEve

Welcome to the forum! This site has provided me with so much support. I really feel much better since joining. You have found the right place. :hugs:

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Thank you, RoseEve ))

I think loneliness is very underrated. Chronic loneliness can be completely debilitating. For people who haven't experienced it, it's impossible to truly appreciate how it gnaws away at you, leaving a bigger and bigger pit until you feel like it's consuming all your waking hours.

I know what it's like to feel empty because there's no one to call to do something as simple as go out for pizza. I yearn for companionship and long for a time when I found it easier to mix with others and make friends.

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Originally Posted by Round in circles

I think loneliness is very underrated. Chronic loneliness can be completely debilitating. For people who haven't experienced it, it's impossible to truly appreciate how it gnaws away at you, leaving a bigger and bigger pit until you feel like it's consuming all your waking hours.

I know what it's like to feel empty because there's no one to call to do something as simple as go out for pizza. I yearn for companionship and long for a time when I found it easier to mix with others and make friends.

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Hi.

Are you able to cope somehow? Are you experiencing just loneliness.........or something more?

Please share with me. We could use PM

-Steve

I've got lots of issues. Isolation and loneliness are probably the worst. I hardly leave the house after two traumatic incidents many years ago. As a result i lost my job and my social supports. I have complex PTSD, social phobia, asperger's syndrome, anxiety, depression, eating disorder, IBS. I've probably left something out but oh well.

I don't cope with it. Some days I barely feel like I'm existing when the sense of hopelessness and the realisation of my situation hits hard, but it is what it is. For a long time I forgot what it feels like to have hope, but in the last few months I've felt compelled to work towards something better. I don't know if it will work but that glimmer of hope, the yearning for something more is far more than I've had for a very long time. That's got to count for something.

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Originally Posted by Round in circles

I've got lots of issues. Isolation and loneliness are probably the worst. I hardly leave the house after two traumatic incidents many years ago. As a result i lost my job and my social supports. I have complex PTSD, social phobia, asperger's syndrome, anxiety, depression, eating disorder, IBS. I've probably left something out but oh well.

I don't cope with it. Some days I barely feel like I'm existing when the sense of hopelessness and the realisation of my situation hits hard, but it is what it is. For a long time I forgot what it feels like to have hope, but in the last few months I've felt compelled to work towards something better. I don't know if it will work but that glimmer of hope, the yearning for something more is far more than I've had for a very long time. That's got to count for something.

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I sent you a PM with my email.

Let's talk some more

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Originally Posted by panic_deep

Hi.
hello you are not alone, stay strong and you can talk to me.
you will get better.




I'm a newcomer to this forum.

Nice to meet you all.

I've been struggling with depression for many years now. Recently, it developed into full-blown anxiety-attack, panic attacks sometimes.

I have been seeing a psychotherapist since June last year. It helps. He knows his job.

But......I am still far from getting better.

One aspect of my problem is I live in a country where this issue is still not handled efficiently : FINLAND. The issue of depression is widely-known here, but they have no effective methods of dealing with it.........besides pumping one full of pills.

I moved here 11 years ago. The adjustment was cruel. A few times I thought about packing it in, and leaving. But, I stuck with it. I learned the local language........got a full-time job......tried my best to involve myself in social networks, so I could meet and make new friends. etc, etc

I thought this would solve everything. It sure made it easier, but there was so much lacking. My biggest problem is a lack of friends. I have nobody to whom I can turn to for help...........or just someone to call up and talk, meet for coffee. Just a friendly face.

I'm a 38-year-old, recently-divorced male, living alone

I am still lucid enough to realize that the "living alone" part is probably the worst aspect of my life now. I find that I cannot stay in the apartment more than 5 minutes without falling into an abyss-like anxiety episode, where I lose touch with reality.

Lately, I have been trying my best to avoid coming home to early. I go to work, and then I am done, I try to stay outside as much as I can. I even walk home sometimes (a distance of 15 km), just so that I wont get home too early, where I'll be alone again. When I eventually get home, I am too tired to do anything besides take a shower and collapse into bed

Weekends are the worst. Having no job to go to on saturdays and sundays, I simply go out. Walk.........jog...........sit in a cafe or bar...........anything, to avoid staying home (((((

I came on this forum to talk. Meet like-minded people, and just talk :(

I cant talk to anyone where I live (besides my therapist)

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hello we are here to help each other you are not alone.

Angie

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Originally Posted by shining bright

hello we are here to help each other you are not alone.

Angie

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Thank you for the warm welcome, Angie :(

PM me your email.