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Ohhhh holy lord today was bad. The agitation that built inside me was so strong I simply fell apart.
So disheartening to try all u can and then a strong bout comes and I crumble under the weight of it.
I simply can't seem to just let it be when it's that strong the fear consumes me. Then afterwards I'm convinced I'm gna die but I so so love life
Feeling so hard done by today
Any body having a well deserved good day
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Hi Jacqueline. Sorry you are having such a bad day, just remember that this is temporary and WILL eventually subside, but God it's hard to carry on when you feel so dreadful isn't it?
Also like you I was under the impression that the medication would get rid of it, I had read so many posts saying "After about a month I was back to normal and stayed like that for another 10 years until I had a sudden relapse" Well that hasn't happened to me, yes the symptoms are less severe, but they are there all day every day simmering in the background. The only time I felt "normal" again if you like was when I went on holiday in October to Lanzarote for 2 weeks. It completely disappeared after day one and it was absolute paradise. As soon as I got back to the UK it returned and has been there ever since. It's so disappointing because I've tried really hard to change things in my life which I felt were contributing towards my condition, but nothing seems to help except on a temporary basis.
How are you feeling now, any better? What have you been doing today?
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Today hasn't really had much peace.
I was busy at matches and shopping for food. Now I'm resting at home but the simmering unease affects every step I take. Every thought and every movement.
Oh god I know when u get peace it is paradise. I know that I do believe the only positive thing in this mess is that in times of peace we are so content with the normal things that others take for granted
But ATM it seems light years away.
How has your day been.
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A shit day. Dont know how much more i can take. Im so fed up of suffering.
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Such a bad day. No real breaks from the fear of bloody nothing xx
Constant nervousness and agitation.
Feel for u so much. Try to be strong but god it's tough
How's u