Everyday is the same right now

I'm having a slightly worse day but it's gave me time to reflect on ho it usually is every day.

I just feel low, feel I can't function, I sit in a daydream on the computer for hours, numb, no emotions...not sure if it's more depersonalisation? I really feel lifeless and hopeless.

Tonight I feel low, had a bug a few days ago but I have a tight stomach, I've no appetite atall, last two days I've had late dinners as I struggled to force myself to eat a little..I feel sad about my life no g.f, no job. I've had chances of dates but they are not my ideal women..I've felt really alone in my suffering of late.

I just think but anxiety, how will I cope, can I cope every day? Some say well I cope as I've got by, but it's no fun just getting by, that's not coping some days I look back on blankly with no emotion and wonder am I really alive? I've suffered spells like this past year really.

Maybe it's a combination of symptoms making me feel this way I just feel sorry for myself..I don't think I can ever free myself of anxiety whilst my life had too many imperfections because that's where all my stress comes from...if I was in a relationship or had my own house I'd maybe feel more secure..:weep:

Sorry your feeling crap mate .
Why don,t you go on a date with one of these ladies you have had a chance of dateing :yesyes:
I,ve met some wonderfull ladies who are now friends for life who wasn,t my type but i gave it a try (turned out i wasn,t there type either !)
The more you socialise the better you will feel . I know how hard it is to fight back when we are in this deep hole , but it all starts with small steps .
Hope you get out of this hole soon Phil .

Hey Phil

With Mel on this one - go on a date or two - you never know what the girl is really like until you get chance to chat. And you may make a valuable friend or two along the way. When my first marriage broke up, I found some really good friends by going out when asked - and they are still my friend 18 years later.

Big plus also Phil - it gets you out and about - keeps you in the loop and takes the edge off the hours spent at home obsessing over the negatives.

Good luck Phil - keep fighting - you will get there in the end.