One pupil larger than the other...
Hi Everyone!
Now, I think I've seen this question asked here on this site, but now I cannot find it ....so please forgive me if I'm posting something that's already been posted ...but I am just beside myself with fear and anxiety ...
I started to notice that my LEFT pupil is larger than my right one...now, this is NOT all the time however .... it's on and off. I do notice it more when I first wake up, and I think that's what I read on here somewhere before, that someone else had said the same thing.... Anyway, just a bit of history here behind this: .... back in late June, I woke up at 6 A.M. one morning already very lightheaded, DETACHED, felt like I was swaying, a bit nauseas, off balance....and it actually felt like something was buzzing in my brain or my head.... I was able to make it out to the living room from the bedroom where my husband was still up working on his laptop ... he immediately ran over to me, because I obviously looked like death warmed over, and was holding onto the wall for balance..... all I could do was stare past him, it was weird.....I COULD talk (of course) no slurring of words or anything, but all I could say was "something's wrong"..over and over...the swaying and off balance was horrible! Finally, after sitting on the couch all day, taking two xanax, and a benadryl(in case this was sinus, because I have terrible sinus problems, adn I know they DO CAUSE things similar to this)....the swaying and off balance subsided somewhat, and I was able to walk around the house, CAREFULLY, holding onto things.....by the next day, I still had remnants of this , whatever that was, but things were on the mend.....HOWEVER, the lasting effects of whatever that was...lasted for about, say......9 weeks. Yeah, so, for the next 9 weeks, I still had that swaying off balance feeling on and off......ok, so fast forward till about a month ago, when, the swaying and off balance thing was getting better, I suddenly noticed that my LEFT pupil was larger than my right.........so, I freaked out!
I natrually started thinking I had a brain tumor! (well, when you put that together with what happ. that morning, and then, how the swaying and off balance thing hung on for weeks, I was CONVINCED i had a brain tumor...geez!) ..... now, it's NOT all the time, as I said previously ..... it happens more when I first wake up ..... but it can happen at any time during the day too..... I realize that the light plays a large part in all of this, so I try to look at my pupils in diff. lighting, in diff. rooms of the house....well, I'd have to say that it always changes, I mean, there are times when I can look in the bathroom mirror, and they look fine, both the same size..other times, the left can look much larger than the right........OK, so ,I run into the bedroom, turn on the light there, and yet again.......SOMETIMES the LEFT can still look bigger than the right...sometimes it looks smaller than the right! Sometimes I will take my hand mirror and go out onto the porch, and look at it in daylight....and again.....I'd have to say, it DEPENDS.....once again, even in daylight, SOMETIMES (that's the key word here) the left can still look bigger than the right.......other times not! I've noticed it does contract with light, it doesn't just stay larger all the time!!!!!
Anyway, after this long crazy anxiety filled post.....I was wondering if anyone here, has this?I am constantly, all day long.....looking at my pupils ...this is insane!
At this point in time, I don't have the money or insurance to see a dr. about this, so I'm doing my own homework on the internet, which of course brings up every scary symptom in the world....just what I need. I have found out however, that anxiety can actually cause this.......I also read that xanax can cause pupil dialation, but they must have meant if you do take a lot...I only take a half a mg. a day....sometimes, a whole mg...when I am really frightened! But, then again, there are days (not to may of them) that I can go without xanax altogether ....so, I don't know............. my vision is basically "okay"...not great, but not bad either...... also, just as a side note, the vision in that same LEFT eye is not as good as right eye .... now, that's something I've already had for a few years though.......
Okay,,,,,,that's it........I'm done! geez.....sorry for such a long post....and thank you to anyone who took the time to sit and read this .... I really do appreciate it, and truly do need some opinions here! It can't just be, that if one pupil dialates differently than the other, that HAS to mean a brain tumor.....that can't be! I mean, there HAS TO BE other reasons for that too, right? WEll, here I go again........the anxiety and panic are building up....thank you everyone!!!
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