Hi,
Yesterday was just awful.
I have been dreading the school holidays in case the children need to be taken anywhere, anyway at the weekend it was agreed that my son could have a keyboard so after phoning round we located a good deal and I thought I would be brave and drive 20 mins into town and get the keyboard with him.
As soon as we got in the car the shaking started, I felt so sick, had my normal safety things, carrier bag (in case I am sick), rescue remedy and tissues! All the time we were driving I kept saying to my 8 year old son, are you sure we cant do this tomorrow, etc. He was determined we should go, and told me to try really hard for him, I was so scared, managed to park the car and walk to the shop but felt so ill - I thought I was going to pass out as my legs were like jelly - we paid and walked back to the car - I felt really upset about the way I had felt and just cant see an end to this - why do I feel like this every time I have to go out?
My son was really kind and kept telling me I had done so well, but it didnt make me feel any better, felt rough for the rest of the day and feel really tearful today - why is life so hard sometimes?
sorry to go on and on.
Take care
Lisa p