Originally Posted by
Pipkin
Pink,
There's no such a thing as a poor me post in my eyes. You just tell it like it is to us as you know we'll understand. That's what this forum is all about. I'm a really positive person despite my anxiety and I always think that tomorrow will be better. At the same time, I need to be honest with myself and others when I'm struggling and I really appreciate the support I get here when I express this. It's something I definitely can't do at work and there's only so much a partner can take, especially when anxiety can seem so alien to those who don't suffer from it.
When I said in my previous post that I was going to give myself a talking to, I meant it. Ridiculous as this might sound, I describe how I'm feeling to myself and then reply as if it were someone else telling me, like in posts on here. That way, I seem to be able to see solutions more easily and I talk a bit of sense into myself. Seems to work sometimes, just not when my anxiety gets really bad because then I struggle to think straight.
When things get really bad and I have a severe anxiety attack, the only way I can calm myself down is by remembering things in a sequence, like a series of books I've read and what happens in them. This seems to slow my brain down and helps me to stop the physical symptoms. I know it's all mind over matter and most of the time I'm strong enough to control it.
Anyway, I did give myself a telling off after lunch today as I think I might have been verging on self-pity which I don't allow in myself. There are so many positive things in my life compared to other people and, now and again, I need reminding of them.
I hope all my ven buddies are doing ok and apologies for the long and somewhat rambling post. As I said, I really appreciate your support. It's great to know you understand first hand.
Take care
Pip xx