Re: About me
Hello Blade,
I just wanted to welcome you to No More Panic. I totally understand how you feel. I have extreme social anxiety. Unfortunately if you withdraw from people it just gets worse and worse. Your world gets smaller and smaller and becomes a very lonely and boring place to be. I had one heck of a panic attack one day years ago going out to collect a parcel from my post lady and since then haven’t even been able to face her. She leaves the parcels in a box by the back gate now. Part of me sees how sad that is but it is hard to climb out of this mire when you feel such fear.
Lately I think I have been getting a teeny bit better though. I had to go to the dentist 4 times in the past 3 months and am going again on Wednesday. I think I feel slightly less nervous than I did the first time I went.
I have started to try to say ‘yes’ to things and am now looking forward to a friend coming from abroad in a few week’s time. Although I am very nervous about being nervous in front of her I’m going to do it. The desire to see her is stronger than my desire to protect myself from public embarrassment. I know I will be shaking etc but part of me is saying, ‘So What!’ I think those two words just might hold the key to me getting out of this lonely life. I hope they work for you too. Dive away!
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Belief is the strongest magic of all