hi Guys,
God I hate my husband so much. I cant even sleep in the same bed as him anymore. Im sitting here at 3.20pm after just having sex with my husband and I feel so horrible. It was so horrible I cant bear him touching me no more. The tears are tripping me Ive just had a shower and I still feel yuk. Why do I hate him so much. I feel so guilty. I just want proper cuddles and support from him and he just thinking wham bam thank you mam. I know Im gonna be so embarrassed tomorrow when I realise Ive posted this and probably wont appear in nmp for the next few days but Im so desperate and don't care. To all of you who know me Ive just checked through my spelling 6,000 times and rectified it but I still aint gonna delete it as I feel so strong about this. As past 2 weeks Ive not went to bed but lay on the sofa(its leather and really cold) cos I couldnt bear being near him but tonight he went to bed before me and i thought happy days he'll be sleeping and I'll get asleep in a comfy bed. But he must a smelt me when I got in and away he goes. Yuk. Im so unhappy hate him so much but at the same time feel I have to be here as Ive got his 2 children. Sorry folks for going on and on but it feels better this way. Anyone got any advice. Should I leave him and make my kids unhappy or should I stay and make me unhappy.