Try not to focus on it as daft as it sounds, I'm training myself to ignore it as much as possible as don't want it taking over my life forever. Be good to yourself in the meantime and stay patient eventually you'll be able to control it instead of letting it control you, try to get out of that horrible vicious cycle of thinking the worst. Wishing you all the best and message me anytime and I'll lend you an ear and help if possible.

Mick.