My anxiety and panic seem to have come right down recently, since I've been doing some proactive relaxation.

However, I've been feeling quite low.

If you can imagine feeling normal and then being a bit depressed, that is how I feel. I don't feel horrendously bad, although I'm still a bit tense, I just feel a bit listless and a bit grim physically.

I'm trying to take it as a very positive step, because I have felt awful with depression and anxiety for years, but it's really hard because I feel a bit like I'm teetering in the middle of a see-saw. I can kind of 'see' being better, but I also know that I could fall into being very unwell again quite easily.

It's so frustrating, because things are starting to go well and there is no reason for me to feel depressed any more.

Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.