last year i went to see my cousin abroad, like i do every year, who suffers form MS. every year i would see her and that would be that. but last august for some reason, i went to see her and from that very point on i began to become anxious about my own health. my family seemed to be continuosly talking about how she had it from a young age and never realised and how it wasnt caught quick enough to give her better treatment. now, for the last year my life has been like hell. continuous outbursts of bad health anxiety. although i know its the worst thing i can do i continuously google symptoms and so on. i cant sleep. it gets so bad that i tremble and then i see these as more symptoms and the circle carries on. very strange however, around january - march, it seemed to stop and i felt better then all of a sudden it started again, all the anxiousness.it seems that when im with certain people i dont get it.eg my mum.i've told noone other than my best friend, but its hard, im only 15 .unlike many people with health anxiety, i wont go and see a doctor, im so afraid what he might tell me. instead i try and self diagnose which makes me even worse. i spend so much of my time testing my hand-eye co-ordination, testing reflexes and so on. i just want to know will it stop. will a physical examination help?....
shizz
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