Hi Guys,
Just to let you know that I'm taking a break for a few days from nmp. Over the past few weeks I've had a lot on my mind. Some of you know I sent my hubby packing a few weeks ago and was having trouble with his friend pestering me. I'm all upside down at the minute. I have to hold up my hand and say I paid him no attention these past 5 months and its not been fair on him. I think I've dwelled to much on my health anxiety and not on things that should really matter. My son and daughter whom I love with all my heart miss having their daddy at home and I feel guilty about that too. His job means he has to go away for 8 months in September and he is willing to lose out on this job promotion opportunity just so we can get back together as he knows I wouldnt move away from here so I need to know 100% what I'm gonna do. I wouldnt want him to loose out because of me making the wrong decision. It's so hard for me cos I've told myself I hate him so so much but at the same time he's such a lovely person and good to me and we will be married 12 years on 6th August. Thank you to all my true friends at nmp and please could someone look after lin cos she's a bit dopey and might loose her way in the world without me to keep her on the right track lol.
See you all in a few days.
Mandyx