If it's my biggest achilles heal, it's damn social anxiety.
I am so rubbish at meeting new people. Bad in large groups, totally clam up in meetings, don't know what to say and typically think of the witty and funny comment several minutes or hours later. I can't smalltalk, I can't relate!
I've avoided 3 social occassions at work now lately.
I come across as cold, distant - but it's because I'm so terribly shy. Later, when I finally get to know a few people, it's always "You're actually alright! We thought you were up yourself!".
I haven't had a proper girlfriend in years as a result and it's so damned lonely. All my friends are partnered off now and I see so very few people.
Where the hell to even start fixing this?