Hi All
After 2 and half years of not working from being too anxious to spend any length of time in a working environment because of feeling out of it, panic, over anxious, unsteady, ready to pass out, tense etc etc, I am starting a 15 hour cleaning job tomorrow and I am really nervous. It sounds ridiculous to sound nervous about hoovering and mopping for 2 - 3 hours but it is a big step for me. I am on meds which don't totally control how I feel. Prior to not working I spent 10 years in a busy office whilst still suffereing from these feelings and I honestly don't know how I did it.
Looking back over those 10 years, I had times where I just couldn't face work and had days off, now I know it was depression, at the time I thought it was just because I couldn't be bothered. I was anxious but really didn't think I was depressed, now I know that they are two sides of the same coin.
I would love to know how your illness has affected your work, have any of you managed to keep going through it all?
I am looking for some moral support for tomorrow