For the past ten years I have been through hell and back. At mt worst my depression and anxiety were so bad that I was in a psych ward for two months but thankfully now my life is back on track and I'm doing okey. Recently I have been struggling again, I have had a lot of stress and it just all came to a head at the beginning of the week and I broke down. I'am close to my parents and we have a good relationship and they do lots for me financially wise and I'am very lucky. I confided in my parents a few weeks ago that I was feeling suicidal and had cut myself they were very understanding and my dad came to the doctor with me. It made me feel really good and supported as when I was in hospital before my parents got quite angry with me and were very much like ' whats wrong with you ' kind of attitude and didnt understand at all what I was going through. It was very tough for me when I was in hospital and I was very scared, I felt very rejected by my parents when I was in there. On Monday I had a crying break down and my dad got quite impatient and annoyed at me (we were shopping at the time) and earlier on my dad had treated me to a jumper I wanted which I was very grateful and thankful for. Again this attitude of ' what's wrong with you, you have got lots of stuff to look forward to' was voiced from my dad and I could tell he was getting flustered, annoyed and generally fed up with me. He dropped me of home and I was crying my eyes out and I hadnt spoken to him again since yesterday. During that phone call we just chit chattered about general stuff but he didnt ask me once how I was or how I was feeling. I find this very hard to accept and understand because if the last time I saw someone I knew, especially if it was a daughter I had it would be the first question I would ask. I know mental illness is a hard thing for people to understand and it is very frustrating for loved ones but now I feel like my parents dont get my problems at all and I dont really feel like I can confide in them anymore. I think they have a tendancy to gloss over things as being okey, when they are not. Maybe im being a selfish cow and being over senstitive. It's not really something I can talk to them about either because their repsonse will be ' we do alot for you and pay for your car etc ' and then I will just feel guilty. I just feel really frustrated and quite pissed off because I feel like my parents and I were making progress with my mental health problems but now I just feel like nothings changed
I should also mention I have a husband who is very supportive and we have a very loving relationship so I do have support at home.