Thank you both. My husband has removed the knife block for now as the intrusive thought upset me that much, now I'm worried he shouldn't have removed it? Will I make it worse?
With me I knew I wouldn't do it, I didn't want to, I'm not an angry person but the thought scared me and thd guilt got to me so much that yesterday that I couldn't look at my children without crying:(( I really beat myself up for the thought and panicked I was ill or something. Wondered if I should stay away from my family:( All day I felt sick and anxious:(
I'm hoping it won't be long until I see a therapist and I will mention the thought buy what can I so until then?:/
Thanks so much for replying. My son is having EMDR as of next week as my brother scared him too:(