I have the feeling of guilt not being good with myself. Several years ago I have a central serous ratinopathy in my right eye. I went to doctor. After some month of medication I stopped taking medicines. Instead, I did some eye exercise that cause damage in my eye. Recently, I went to doctor again. Doctor said I have macular degeneration in my right eye. It was really hard for me to accept it as I am just 37 years old. I feel really guilty of my mistake of doing eye exercise though doctor said it was caused by some other reason. I fear I will do the same mistake again. I was already depressed for some other reason. Eye problem caused the depression bad. It is hard to regain confidence. Everyday I am praying to Allah to cure my eye.