Re: I have had enough I really don't want to deal with it anymore.
Please don't give up. I understand where you're coming from, as I'm 24 and in the past few months I've had to drop out of college, give up a job, and I can't stand to be alone. I used to love having time alone but now I'm terrified of being by myself. I live with my boyfriend and luckily he enjoys sitting around playing video games, but my issues have caused issues and tension, like we had a big fight because he was going away on a long vacation with his family and I was having panic attacks over being alone, so he had to stay--he was really upset about it and I still feel so guilty. But my problem is a swallowing issue, and so I can't drink or eat when I'm alone.
Could it be that he's stressed over revisions, and just adding that to the pile of stress and taking it out on you? People often don't understand and don't know how to react. My own mother talks about how I'll be "dead soon" because I'm literally starving myself. Thanks, mom..
I'm not who I used to be, either. Before February, I didn't have this anxiety and I was so excited about my future. Now I have a will written out and I've given up on a good quality of life.
But I know people who have been in worse situations. They survived and went on to great things.
It'll change for us. Keep hanging on until then, okay?
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