I really need to vent. It's the middle of the night here and I have no one to talk to. An hour and a half ago I woke up in a full blown panic attack which lasted for about 30 minutes. I get this maybe once or twice a month lately. They are really hard to get through, I don't really know why. It's like I'm not fully awoken and I'm convinced I'm going crazy. It's such an overwhelming feeling... Now I'm left with residual anxiety and severe nausea. I don't want to be this way forever... I've had such good days, weeks even. I feel like I just can't get to the next level, if you know what I mean. I fear I'm never going to be fully functional and that I'll never learn to really cope with anxiety to the point where I can live freely. We should be given medals of courage or something.