oh dear me,just when every thing was going so well i have a huge stinking panic attack[Sigh...]it wasa humdinger and i feel very poorly and tearfull :(i was on my way back from a party.I had stayed over night in a hotel[Yeah!]had a fab time fancy dress the lot[:P]..well my tum was upset really crampin and i felt sick .Allof a sudden it swept over me [Ugh]i took control at first ,used all the stratagies i have learnt on here and it seemed to work.I was soo chuffed[Yeah!]..then BAM...it came back and NOTHING i did helped i was out of control.i wanted to throw myself out of the car i was so frightened and i was sceaming for help..i took valium and that didnt help either[Sigh...]..i wished more than anything ,at that point ,that i could have rung one of you.I did ring my Son and he talked to me ,thru my screams and tears for an hour and a half[the length of the journey[Ugh]]Bless him as i dont know how i would have coped if he hadnt ,i think i would have had to go t hospital or sum such[:P]I did calm down eventually,but i feel so low and beaten again...i knew it never truly goes away,but i was not prepared for such a bad one .It has left me scared , am i back to square one?..afraid of the fear.?I wonder why that happened????Thanks for reading this ..feel lost at present.thanks ,love mary rose.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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