I just don't know what to say today so I've come in to sound off. Hope that's ok. Just feel like crap today...I'm in pain, anxious, depressed and twitching like crazy. I sropped a tea-towel yesterday and it got me so angry I screamed the place down. Feel like I'm going insane. Feel like a mess. A factory reject. I look back at my life and it was so horrendous, so painfull I don't know how I survived. I'm also sick of people judging me on my appearance. I had comments today that really piss me off. Sometimes I get so angry I could just kill someone. not that I ever would of course but that's how angry I get. I'm sick of other people, sick of judgements sick of everything. My life is so empty...I have noone in my life at all aprt from a deaf, insensitive step father who means well but always says things that get to me and he never hears have the conversations I have with him as he's so hard of hearing. That's it. That's my lot. I think I might die alone. Rot and die. I could be here rotting and that's the only thing that coudl get people's attention...the smell. Sorry it sounds horrible I knwo but that's what goes through my mind sometimes. I can't see myself getting married or having children. I even can't walk properly anymore due to my physical problems.