Having experienced panic attaks from adolescence i have grown up thinking surviving in any job would be difficult because i panic particularly when people watch me. eg. my hands turn to led if someone hands me a cup of tea and i'm lucky if i can accept it without dropping the cup or spilling the content as i'm in a state of panic. This makes the simplest of tasks difficult.
So why in a moment of sheer deluded self belief i decided to become a student nurse i have no idea. My first two weeks of hospital placement have involved me running a mile the minute i think i'll be asked to perform any sort of 'hands on' task. I'm upset because i want so badly to be 'normal' and to become a nurse, but how will i ever succeed when i am ruled by terror and fear of being seen having a panic attak?
Please tell me what sort of jobs and occupations other people with panic attaks manage to do? I am so close to quitting because i feel so scared of being seen and being embarrassed by the panic. Are there any panicky people out there who have become nurses?
Janey (in despair)