PTSD

[angiebaby]

Hello there, i have always spoke on the anxiety and panic side of the site as i have suffered with anxiety, depression and panic attacks for two years, however, i have always thought i had PTSD since the traumatic op i had two years ago but nobody mentioned this to me. After recently seeing a chinese doctor, last thing to try, he confirmed my beliefs of having PTSD and i do feel a little better giving it a proper title. This also makes a lot of sense with my symptoms and the way that i have been feeling. I know that i am still here and still suffering the same but at least now i know why. That does make it a little easier for me i suppose. Any advice from people who have PTSD gratefully received as i donot know a great deal about this yet. Thankyou. Angie.x

It takes a minute to get anxiety, but a lifetime to get rid of it!!!

[myself]

Angiebaby
there are so many different problems that ptsd cause us, it can affect us all in differernt ways.
My advice would be to read up on ptsd, there is much information available on the web, I first looked up the BBC websites health pages. There are also numerous books available. However probably the best thing you can do is discuss this with your GP, and ask if specialist help is available in your area.
take care of yourself, and feel free to post any messages here so others can also try and help.
myself

[angiebaby]

Struggling a lot the past few days, Friday was awful. Woke up not knowing where i was or who i was, don't know why. Managed to get to work but it was awful. BP and pulse were fine all day, although i was not really there, terrified, not knowing anything. I carried on all day and managed to get home, don't know how. Got home and told my hubby, could not describe the feelings that i had got inside, just awful!!!! Just wanted to sit in a corner and cry, on my own, and scream and scream and put my head in a wall to see if that would help. The only thing i could think of was that these feelings that i was having were the same that i had on the operating table but without my body reacting, perhaps it is too tired to bother now!!!! I just don't know, this was more than just unreality, it was even worse even though i didn't think that anything could get worse. I'm so fed up with all of this and just want to get back to how i used to be before the op. Have had unreality since Friday, not as bad and with breaks throughout the day, but now i'm having more ectopics again, BP and pulse are both fine. Scared to go to work tomorrow, really dreading it but i know it will be horrendous in the morning. What do i do? Got to wait until 20th Feb before my first appointment with the CPN at my surgery. Will try and go to work tomorrow but i think if i struggle again i may have to have time off, had two weeks off before christmas then went back because i felt guilty as it was busy. Am looking for another job but i don't think that anything will help at the moment other than another brain!!!!! lol. Angie.x

It takes a minute to get anxiety, but a lifetime to get rid of it!!!

[myself]

angiebaby
sorry things are tough, I know the experiences are more realistic than when they actually occured, and I know you do want to be how you were "before", all I want to be is myself, hence my signature. Havent been myself for so long now, start to wonder what I was actually like then !
Its good you can talk to your hubby, it will be g hard for him to fully understand so be patient with him !!!!!!
As for work, it is a struggle when affected by ptsd, I have been off work for a hwile, but was told by my specialist to think twice before changing jobs, is it easier to stick with what you know than to try something different ?
take care
myself

[angiebaby]

Have read a wonderful book called 'The Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder sourcebook' which i bought off E.Bay, written by Glenn Schiraldi PhD. I have found lots of useful information in there and the horrible feelings that i have been experiencing but couldn't 'put my finger on' have now been explained through this book. So in that respect i am feeling better now that i can name them!! I am still eating my carrots each day and this is working by keeping the unreality to a minimum, if i miss my carrots for a day, the next day i am definatly worse! I have an appointment set up at my surgery with a CPN but it isn't until the end of February. Still getting palpatations but they are not turning into complete panic attacks as i WONT LET THEM!! I can feel my heart pounding and i can feel and hear it in my ears but i then make myself really busy until it subsides and this stops it developing further. Although i am still getting ectopics everyday which still frighten me and throw me off guard each time. I am just 'keeping going' as i know that we all are the best that we can. After reading the book though i am even more convinced that this is PTSD and with doing some of the exercises in the book, which have helped, this has proved it to me even more. I would recommend this book to anyone.x

Angiebaby.x
It takes a minute to get anxiety, but a lifetime to get rid of it!!!

[angiebaby]

I have really had enough of this and i'm am trying my best but obviously that just isn't good enough. I have to go for a 48 hour tape this weekend and i have dealt with these for years, but i'm petrified of going, WHY?, don't know. Nothing to be scared of i know, just the whole process of going and having it done, getting through it. Got appointment with neurologist on 6th Feb about dizziness and go to see CPN for first time on 20th Feb. Just hoping someone can do something for me. Sorry for the long post

Angiebaby.x
It takes a minute to get anxiety, but a lifetime to get rid of it!!!

[angiebaby]

Had a dream last night about my op, different place and people but it was definatly about the op. My hubby thinks that this is good as it signifies my brain starting to accept it, what do you think?

Angiebaby.x
It takes a minute to get anxiety, but a lifetime to get rid of it!!!

[wobily_lin]

elo Angie,

nice ta meetcha...well I have PTSD..four years now due to a very traumatic time as patient in a hosp n many ops so i know how ye feel and if ye like me hun...its awful...i would say ye hav it for sure..

pls feel free to pm me anytime..x

Take care,
Lin xxx
"Fear is dat lil darkroom, wer negatives r developed", so positive thoughts okies!!!!!

[angiebaby]

Hi Lin, thanks for reply. Suffering a lot with unreality again at the moment, do you get this?

Angiebaby.x
It takes a minute to get anxiety, but a lifetime to get rid of it!!!

[smudgie]

Hi
Im sorry you our really struggling with this at the moment, it must be a reallt difficult time for you.

I suffer from PTSD, which Ive had since I was 14yrs, Im now 38yrs. Unfortunately it wasnt dealt with at the time so Ive carried it throughout my life until now.
Sources info on the web is great and books are a great source.
My saying is knowledge is wisdom, which will help you self help and push the services for better treatment like im doing now.

If you ever need to talk please contact me.
Smudgie
ness