I have increasingly become aware of how I float between tearful resignation or blinding rage at where I am at.

I was medically retired from a 27-year career through GAD, depression and stress. I thought that I would change as a result without that pressure but hey…still the same!!

Some days I get so down I just want to cry. I want to end the pain and hurt I am causing to others and myself. On really dark days I feel I really want to end it all.

Other days I get very angry about it all. I start to push those who care away, if they don’t like me then what does it matter if I’m not around. I wont be missed.

I fully understand both those dark, dark places and how scary they were for me. Hopefully I have moved on positively. However it got me round to thinking…………………

It is easier to care for someone who cries, how do we care for someone who doesn’t??

Iain


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