just want to say that you guys for all your kind words, and it helps to know that im not alone in this world.
again i woke this morning feeling the same way as yesterday, as soon as i opened my eye and sat up there was the pain, but i also had a tight tummy and chest area, feels like everything is strained internally to, if i burp, if feels like im hurting, just every part of my feels old and aches.
yesterday a cooker arrived at the house for my mum that i had bought as a Christmas present last week and i said that when it arrived i would install it, but when it came i wasn't feeling great and didn't feel i had teh strength or will to do it.
they said " when you installing it, and i replied i will do it tomorrow as im not feeling to great" the response was "oh"
at 2 points during the day and evening i was lying in my bro's bed upstairs, family members had walked past me and seen me there and not one came in and said are you ok, or do you need to talk, they just carried on as normal like i wasn't there.
this morning i went to install the cooker to find its too large for the set aside area, so i rang my mum at my sisters and she said "what are we going to do" not even are you feeling any better or are you alright? nothing.
is it just me and my family or do you guys have the same problem to?
its hard enough facing, dealing and accepting anxiety but when you dont have the support behind you its almost unbearable,
as the great author Aurthur C Clarke wrote in his best selling novel 2001
" in the midst of plenty they lay starving"
thats how i feel sometimes.
you've hear the song All I Want For Christmas, well if i could have just one thing it would be to feel relaxed and calm and happy, and not just for me, but for us all here..
I pray that God will look down upon us all and see are suffering and bless it and give us the strength to bare all and allow us to feel at peace with in our bodies and souls, because we are all good people, with good hearts.
thanks guys.
Merry Christmas to you all and God Bless.