Oh believe me, I won't be saying anything
I've been facing my fears lately and its been really empowering... afterwards lol. But the anxiety has come back a bit, I'm guessing that's normal though tbh.
It's easy to believe that trying is stupid, that nothing nice will ever happen. But once I got out of that mind set and now I've been facing things head on I'm way better, going to college was the first thing I did too!
I still really really really don't want to go to that group meeting. It's on thursday. I'll let you know how it goes...