Hello..... i have been posting a lot in the G.A.D area.... but i am quite confused to what i'm actually suffering. It seems to be a number of things.
1 of them i know for sure is.....COMMITMENT![:O]
COMMIMITMENT WITH ANYTHING!!
From relationships....to buying a house, to signing contracts. i totally FREAK out at the thought of it. Right now i'm in a relationship, we r just taking it slow... but a few months into it my b/f suggested moving in with me. This was 4 months ago...since that day he asked me....i have not been the same with him. I keep ending the relationship, then regretting i ended it and then get him bk, then ending it again. I don't know what to do, i know i feel like this because he is in my life....so i think to myself.... if this ended my anxiety would be better because i wouldn't have him to worry about. But at the same time....the fear is beating me....so i try to fight it by stayin with him and beating this fear once and for all...but its cripling me.
Also another Commitment things is.... Buying from a catalouge... Recently my phone broke....so i was about to shop online for a new phone...but for some reason couldn't select the checkout button. i had the phone all selected....but the thought of actually saying yes ans then freaky out because that it...its mine i HAVE to pay for that. What if i lost my job? what if i couldn't afford to pay for it? what if i got it and i didn't like it? So i didn't select check out cos i didn't want the commitment of paying for it.
Saying i'll do something for someone too and then as soon as i say "yes sure i'll help you"
I FREAK out because i know i said yes and they will be relying on me.
Is this quite normal? is this somethng therapy might help with?