Hello, me again, had a terrible day and just wondered what you thought about this idea. With PTSD you are supposed to get flash backs, well the closest feelings that i can relate to how i'm feeling at the moment are the feelings that i had when i was on the operating table. Sheer terror, i was going to die and that was that, get me OFF and let me run sort of thing, but of course i could'nt. I'm having real problems in trying to understand and put into words the way that i am feeling, today is worse than ever. But can't describe how i feel, my BP and pulse are normal and have been all day but my body if going through something horrendous and i can't stop it at all. I've been to work and even though i don't feel though i have because of the unreality, i KNOW i've been and the feelings still didn't stop even though i was busy, i haven't felt this bad for a long time. Normally i get a break a bit from it but today it's been constant. I don't know what to do, just want to cry but it doesn't make me feel any better. My body is having the panic, despair, hoplessness, fear, anxiey unreality, can't cope, etc, etc, but no physical symptoms except shaking. Perhaps my mind is running through the events of that fateful 'operation' day as a sort of flashback and my body is now too tired to keep up anymore. I just don't know, any advice please, i've really had enough of feeling like this with no escape, you can't run from yourself can you? Want to put my head through a wall and see if that helps. Like my mind is just screaming!!! Can anyone relate with this, any advice please i'm at my wits end now. Angie.x
It takes a minute to get anxiety, but a lifetime to get rid of it!!!