Anxiety and stress
It's along time since I've been here, which means I've been mostly well!
Having a bad time at the moment, though. I'm feeling overwhelmed in my job, and now it looks likely that my team will be disbanded and at the very least I will be redeployed, possibly made redundant. I am unbelievably stressed at the moment, and feel like I am useless and unwanted. This is the 3rd time in 4 years this has happened, and I can't help feeling that it's me somehow that's led to this. My confidence is shot to pieces! I feel anxious all the time, and find it hard to see the positive anywhere. We are very lucky that we have layers of contingency, and that it is very likely that I will not end up with no job for any significant time, but it's hard to see that at the moment!!
The GP has referred me for CBT although that will take a while to come through, and in the meantime I have some Citalopram to take.
The one positive is that my panic symptoms from years ago haven't recurred. That was definitely worse.
Arrrrgh!!!
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