I'm feeling hopeless again. I'm getting bored of feeling like this. Seems like my health is just generally playing up to spite me.
I'm just so tired. Jaded. What's the point?
Honestly. Why bother? Why bother going to bed when I'd have to go to bed again the next night? Why shower when my hair will only get dirty again? Why bother falling in love when he'll just break my heart like everyone else?
I wish there was a button I could push to just end it all right now. My own personal nuclear arms button. Just push it and my whole person goes up in smoke and all that's left is a happy little crater full of ash.