I think my fear of eating stems from a fear of dying. None the less I cannot eat. One day I was eating a pasta salad, piece went down the wrong way, nothing out of the norm, cough, comes back up. This time though, next day I have the biggest fear ever. I've been on tomato soup (no bits) and banana complan milkshake since the beginning of November. I cannot bring myself to eat solids. I fear choking. It's getting out of control. I really see no escape or end.