Re: What do you think caused your HA? Your first HA experience? (possibly triggering)
When I was 11 years old, I found a lump under my jaw. To me, lump = cancer. But I was young an immature and just panicked about it in private - afraid that if I told anyone it would become more real and that their fear would make mine worse.
From that point on, any weird symptom I had I attributed to the "cancer". When I was 12 I had ringworm, but I'd never had it before and was certain that it was a cancer symptom so, still in the mindset I had before, I didn't tell anyone about that, either.
When I was 15, I woke up one morning with a feeling of dread. My HA got worse and worse from there.
I also had anxiety attacks, mainly when I was a guest at a friend's house or when friends came to visit me. They weren't really health related, but would give me nauseous fits and they were no fun.
While I suffered from HA, I had a wide range of symptoms and 'illnesses'. Anything from MS to ALS to the idea I was going blind or losing my voice, etc.
And finally, when I was 21 I found what I thought was another lump.My HA had been kind of dormant but this spiked it again big time. This entire time, I still had the first lump (it never went away). I decided I needed to bring it up and see the doctor about it - only took me 10 years to do so! The doc wasn't worried; said it was a lymph node that just hadn't ever gone down. Did a few tests, nothing was serious, and I left the doctor's office feeling freer. It was like all my fears were disproved and I could just move on. And, for the most part, I did. I still have troubles with GAD, but not really HA anymore which is a huge relief
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