Has anyone lost someone they were close to and found they have experienced themselves saying "this is the first time of x since y has passed away" for months and months?
I call it the 'firstism syndrome' and seem unable to stop doing it, even though it drags up the same painful memories.
Stupid example, a new series of 'just for laughs' is on BBC tonight, Dad use to always love watching that, I thought this is the first time since he passed away that it is on....and away we go!
When will this hell end?