Hello there,
I just wanted to share my feelings as I'm having a rough time at the moment and am hoping that you'll all know exactly where I'm coming from. Thanks in advance for reading.
I've been off meds for over a year and have really struggled with maintaining any self esteem or confidence. I took on a job that I'm massively out of my depth in, and feel like I stumble from one cock-up to the next there. I'm thinking about resigning because it's creating such a lot of stress and misery - my manager seems constantly displeased with my performance
I'm experiencing anxiety attacks several times a day - mainly at work in meetings - but also in my sleep, which wake me up with a feeling that I can't breathe.
I've currently got that familiar depression feeling that I want to climb into bed, pull the duvet over my head and block the world out forever.
Am going to see my GP to discuss going back on a treatment plan but feel so hopeless in the meantime. Can't stop thinking about what a useless idiot I am and it's making me feel worse and worse.
Thank you for listening.