Hiya
When I overcame my panic attacks before I became a totally different person. I was positive about life, I was always smiling and laughing and I wanted to do stuff with my life.
Since the New Year my panic attacks have come back and I've gone back to square one, but worse. I am very self conscience, I can't have coffee and alcohol because they make me panic and the smallest of things seem to scare me like somebody calling my name. I got a job on Wednesday for the first time and I didn't feel excited. On occasions I felt as though I was going crazy and that was very scary.
I am really confused with what is happening to me and I need to see a doctor but I am too scared. I went to book a Physio appointment for my back and I had been feeling depressed at the time for an unknown reason, I told her and she was not willing to help unless I was attempting/thinking of committing suicide. She then told me that I could go to this centre and pay to get counsilling. I was 16 years old with no job, I found that a total insult!
I can't tell my Mum either because she is too stressed out at the moment with work and my Dad isn't understanding so this is a thing I need to do alone ... but I'm scared :(
"My teddy last night was a paper bag, to keep my safe."