Hi everyone
Haven't visited the site much in the last month - we've had broadband/server probs so couldn't access the site.
Managed to catch up with some postings and have PMd some old friends (you know who you are).
Most of you will recall what dreadful sleep problems I had at the end of last year; well, they are a little better - I manage 4 sometimes 5 hours a night now, and although its not enough, I'm coping.
My anxiety gives me good days and bad days and the physical symptoms (palpitations, chest pain, chest tightening/burning etc) is still there, I KNOW ITS NOTHING SINISTER!! just anxiety making its evil presence known!!! I'm still taking the propanalol (3 x 40 mg) - I try to keep to one every 8 hours, but they tend to last really for only about 6 hours - unless I'm very busy or very distracted. The PAs and pains are usually what wakes me up at 4 or 5 am, and I never manage to get back to sleep.
The panic attacks still happen, and I cope with them - good old rescue remedy and willpower. My husband is still wonderful - incredibly supportive and reassuring. Our life will never be back to what we call 'normal' and I know we've got some very stressful times ahead of us this year (they are part of what I am really worrying about.)
Losing Dad a week before christmas on top of everything else that happened really did cap off a terrible year. BUT, I am trying extremely hard to be positive, and have been very grateful for the messages of reassurance and support from my NMP friends.
I've started to visit the quiz again - not doing very well though!!!
Sandie