I've been struggling a lot recently but just trying to continue. I finally gave in to my horrible feelings and called in sick to work. I have a holiday to Belgium booked in 3 weeks and I'm really really worried about it. I don't want to let my friend down but I also don't want to ruin her holiday. Will I just be living with these feelings forever? Because it's already been 6 years and I'm not sure how much more I can take. I'm worried I will just start losing my mind and end up being a complete shut in and I really don't want that to happen.