Hey everyone. Well, I had a big PA last night but am slowly feeling better and calming down. It was a really scary one though and brought me down a lot cause I thought I was over them. It all started out last night with some high anxiety, my sister used WAY too much laundry soap last night and the smell bugs me for some reason. I could smell it in my room with the door shut. At first I wondered if I was having an allergic reaction, or maybe imagining it. So I asked my sister and her bf if they could smell it too and fortunately they could.
After realizing I wasn't losing it, I figured it must have just been high anxiety and irrational fear, so I did some EFT and went to sleep around 11. Woke up at 1:30 or so sweating like a pig. My legs were shaking like mad, my breathing felt real shallow, my hands were cold and it felt like someone was squeezing my head. I was just so scared these things haven't hit me in a week, which is really good for me, so I figured they were done.
I also got this feeling like my adam's apple was going to jump out of my throat, I had no idea what the heck that was and it spooked me. I must have done like twenty rounds of EFT before I was able to get back to sleep and I woke up feeling disoriented and still kind of anxious. I just feel drained, that thing nailed me hard last night when I was least expecting it. Woke me up when I haven't woken up in the middle of the night like that for weeks.
I keep wondering if it was that pizza I ate, or maybe I smoked too many cigs yesterday. Or maybe I've been repressing my anxiety without really noticing it so it exploded forth. I dunno, all I know is these things suck.
Sorry all, just not feeling like my usual self this morning. I'll pick back up again and try to be more positive. Just had to share this because I was so afraid and wonder if all this crap is really normal. Do any of you have stuff like this? It just really, really scared me so much I couldn't even get out of bed last night to get a glass of water after I'd woken up.
God bless you all, sorry for rambling so much,
Dave