Re: Just started..
Antibiotics are such a mixed blessing, Shaz. I've always been told that you should always complete the course to prevent bacteria becoming resistant to antibiotics but I don't know how much that applies when the antibiotics are making you more ill in other ways. It's so hard to tell what is causing what.
My anxiety is bad. I felt like I was too tense to breathe properly earlier. Each breath in felt like such an effort. I've had 4mg of diazepam and I feel better for it, breathing is easier and I feel calmer. I don't feel particularly sedated though as the physical symptoms of anxiety are so bad that it is only taking the edge off. I don't have a lot of diazepam and I am afraid of both running out and becoming dependent on it. There is a lot of it at home though as my mum is epileptic so has it for emergencies and she will let me have some if I'm desperate. I think the mirtazapine is no longer doing anything for me and trying to get back up to speed with life and being back at work is making me more anxious. I really don't want to be signed off again though.
I went to the library and read a pharmacology textbook. There seem to be so few treatments for anxiety, despite it being better understood than other mental health problems. It's basically just sedatives and benzos and one or two other drugs that may or may not help. I don't want to be sleepy all the time.
I really hope the psychiatrist can help me because I can't go on like this.
Last edited by unspoken; 14-02-16 at 17:30.
Reason: Correcting autocorrects made by my phone
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