Hi -
I have an umbilical hernia just above my belly button. I've been advised to have the standard repair operation as it will only get worse and presents itself as a lump above my belly button (nothing breaking through the skin though...)
I cancelled the op once already because I'm scared to have it, and its now due next Thursday, I tried to cancel it again but was advised not to or I'll go to the bottom of the waiting list. I also hate the thought of my anxiety letting people down or causing problems for the NHS etc.
Has anyone had this operation? What is scaring me the most -
- the general anaesthetic, I have never had one and the feeling of losing control terrifies me, I'll be so vulnerable and won't even be able to breathe without their help.
- the breathing tube which will be the only thing helping me breathe, its invasive and I hate the thought of things being shoved down my throat.
- they might cut the wrong areas, like a major artery and this could obviously be catastrophic.
- part of me doesnt believe I actually have a hernia. I had it diagnosed at an ultra sound scan and she said it was v small and no need to operate and that the NHS wouldn't operate on one that size. She said the swelling above my belly button was nothing to do with it and she didn't know what it was.
My GP then recommended I see a surgeon about it and he said due to the size of it I SHOULD have it fixed and soon before it gets worse, he also said the swelling was because of the hernia and if I get it repaired the swelling will go.
So conflicting opinions. I also thought hernias were visible and protruded through the skin which mine doesn't.
I am in a terrible state, can't think straight and really don't know how I'll get through this the thought of that anaesthetic makes me feel sick, my heart races and I just don't see how it can be safe. They might also give me too much of it or not enough
I am spinning out of control, can anyone metaphorically slap me around the face with a wet fish??!