hello everybody,
i wonder if anyone could give me any advice or reasurance,in october 2 days before my dads funeral i found out my now ex partner was having an affair,we have a son together who is now 13 months.
he applied through a solicitor for contact once a week,i was advised not to let him have it as he wouldnt give a fixed adress.
i have now recieved a letter to attend a hearing at court,ive been told its not wigs and judges like id imagined,but im getting so anxious as it gets nearer im losing sleep,feeling sick and shaking all the while,the thought of walking into the room makes me panick,im scared im going to look out of control and everyone will notice,im afraid they will ask me a question and all eyes will be on me.
i no this is something i have to do,and i want to compose myself,its going to be hard enough bieng in the same room after what my ex was doing to us while i was nursing my sick dad,i no this is about our son, but im so scared and im working myself up in such a state,i so want to be able to do this,i want to mention supervised access to start with,my son wont recognise him,im a quivering wreck,already got the runs,and its a week away, what am i going to do,my mum is giving me some diazapan the night before to take that morning. what can i do to calm down,im anxious enough as it is
a very anxious charlotte x