I used to have a sort of Sensorimotor OCD brought on by SSRI withdrawal centered around my breathing. I was doing breathing techniques for anxiety and had a thought "What if I cant stop controlling my breathing" lo and behold, I struggled with Sensorimotor OCD for years on and off based around the breathing.
I was never diagnosed with OCD, but I was diagnosed with OCD tendencies. I don't believe that I have any compulsions or rituals, other than trying NOT to think about whatever it is that I'm so fixed on/obsessed with. (But I'm sure this is common)
I eventually managed to beat it, but now I'm in the midst of SSRI withdrawal and my thoughts are obsessive again. I was stuck in the grips of anxiety for about 3 months or so and got tired of constantly thinking about the anxiety one day and now I'm worried that this constant monitoring of my anxiety is going to evolve into a thought obsession, if it hasnt already.
It doesnt seem as gripping as the breathing obsession, because I absolutely HAVE had moments where I forgot about it because someone was talking to me or something caught my attention, usually on a mild anxiety day...
But it's the first thing that I think of when I wake up in the morning and I struggle with it all day. Towards the end of the night I am exhausted and struggle with thoughts of "Am I ever going to be able to just STOP monitoring and thinking about the anxiety or the way that I feel?!"
Does this sound like another OCD obsession, or is this monitoring/checking just a symptom of high anxiety that will pass when the anxiety and withdrawal does? How would you go about dealing/coping with this if it were you?