New here-terrible health anxiety/breast issues

[WahWah]

Hello-
If you're taking the time to read this, thank you. I'm 39 & have been dealing with anxiety on & off since my teens. I had been feeling pretty good for quite a long time, but then last summer I started having digestive issues & it all went downhill from there, just one thing after another. Currently, since April I've been having a sort of soreness/pain, tingling sensation in my left breast (that runs from armpit to nipple) & I'm so terrified it's inflammatory breast cancer. (Of course I did a big no-no & googled my symptoms!) I saw a breast specialist last week & she didn't see/feel anything that worried her but has scheduled me to have a mammogram this coming Tuesday & I'm beside myself. Because I read that with ibc you don't necessarily see/feel lumps. Ugh. My moods go up & down & I'm embarrassed to talk to friends/family anymore because I'm afraid I sound like a whiny hypochondriac, but honestly I feel lost. I just started seeing a therapist, but so far hasn't been too much help, but I know it takes time. I'm married with a 4 & 9 yr old & I feel like I'm missing out on so much because of my excessive worry. Again, thanks for reading & any help is appreciated!

[venusbluejeans]

Hiya WahWah and welcome to NMP

Why not take a look at our articles on our home page, they contain a wealth of information and are a great starting place for your time on the forum.

I hope you find the as site helpful and informative as I have and that you get the help and support you need here and hope that you meet a few friends along the way

[Pepperpot]

Hello-
If you're taking the time to read this, thank you. I'm 39 & have been dealing with anxiety on & off since my teens. I had been feeling pretty good for quite a long time, but then last summer I started having digestive issues & it all went downhill from there, just one thing after another. Currently, since April I've been having a sort of soreness/pain, tingling sensation in my left breast (that runs from armpit to nipple) & I'm so terrified it's inflammatory breast cancer. (Of course I did a big no-no & googled my symptoms!) I saw a breast specialist last week & she didn't see/feel anything that worried her but has scheduled me to have a mammogram this coming Tuesday & I'm beside myself. Because I read that with ibc you don't necessarily see/feel lumps. Ugh. My moods go up & down & I'm embarrassed to talk to friends/family anymore because I'm afraid I sound like a whiny hypochondriac, but honestly I feel lost. I just started seeing a therapist, but so far hasn't been too much help, but I know it takes time. I'm married with a 4 & 9 yr old & I feel like I'm missing out on so much because of my excessive worry. Again, thanks for reading & any help is appreciated!

Hi - if it makes you feel better I went for a mammogram last week and an ultrasound after months of armpit pain that went to my nipple and up into my neck and to my wrist - everything was ok and it turns out its more than likely sitting at my computer that causes this. I am 35 btw x

[WahWah]

Pepperpot-
Thank you for your reply & yes, hearing everything went well for you makes me feel a bit better!! Why I put myself through all this I don't know, but I'm thankful for this site & wish you all the best!

[Pepperpot]

Pepperpot-
Thank you for your reply & yes, hearing everything went well for you makes me feel a bit better!! Why I put myself through all this I don't know, but I'm thankful for this site & wish you all the best!

Thank you
Chances are your mammogram will not reveal anything suspect. Don't be scared of the mammogram either - I have a big bust and while it felt a bit odd having to lean into a machine that took pics of your boobs, it didn't hurt. Remember not to wear deodorant too. x

[WahWah]

Many thanks, Pepperpot!! I appreciate the reassurance & info! Oh, the things we women have to go through! 😊

[Noivous]

WahWha, Hello,

I always thought it amazing we always think of anxiety as being the last reason instead of the first for our discomfort. My HA also started with some digestive issues - all clear now.

Since you saw your doctor and she gave you a clear report I suspect your appointment will bring you good news on Tuesday.

The big question is once you get your clean report back from your test will you accept it?

BTW I don't call it Google anymore. I call it Go Ogle. Because all we do is ogle stupid stuff that isn't doing us any good at all.

N.

[WahWah]

Noivous-Hello & thanks for your response. Yes, I agree how anxiety seems to take over my mind & manifest into so much more, rather than just realizing it's just health anxiety, but I guess it's not that easy?! I think deep down I do realize that anxiety is the culprit (not the disease of the month) & I don't mean to speak on other's behalf, but believe that's why we're here on this site. For me, I have trouble turning it off & hope talking with like-minded people will help.
Re: my upcoming screen: I just want answers. I'm tired of waking up every day for the past 2 months wondering what this could be & why it's not going away. Praying for a clean screen & then-yes-I will accept it (& the physical symptoms will likely subside), that is (as of late) until my next random symptom appears & the cycle starts again. So tired of drs & spending $$ I don't have. Really hoping to break this awful cycle so I can go on enjoying my life, not fretting away!!
Hope I make sense & sorry for rambling!
I wish you all the best!

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Oh & btw, I like Go Ogle! So true & yet why do I think I'll find all the answers there?? It's all really so stupid!

[Noivous]

You're not rambling. And you are wise to come here and get yourself some answers and reassurance...which btw I think is very important in the world of HA.

Please keep us posted on your results.

N.

[WahWah]

You are absolutely right!
I will certainly update my post. Having someone who cares is of great comfort & I'm so thankful!