Read a lot recently about anxious thoughts and how we feel we are going mad or are bad people.
That has always been the common pattern in my anxiety and i have had some terrible thoughts.
Have been through them and with the help of my CBT counsellor have seen the reasons behind them and at times i didnt even feel she could support those horrible thoughts i got. She was great and in no way her fault but more the doubts i had built up. I couldnt handle feeling that i had bad thoughts about my daughter and however she tried to convince me that happens i was in no way inclined to believe her.
But as time has passed even though i still get these thoughts i do realise that i have overcome so much and that thinking them doesnt mean they will happen. It has taken me a long time to realise this and when i feel like that it still gets to me but with time and self testing i now can accept that they are thoughts and not actions.
Love Sal xxxxx