Hey guys,
WARNING:
THIS POST MAY BE A TRIGGER FOR SOME.
Please read with caution and self-care/awareness.
This might sound strange. I have suffered with health anxiety with a few years, but this past year, and excessively the past few months the health fear has been around my mental health.
Yesterday I had a spiral panic attack almost all day over the thought that maybe one day I would kill myself, or maybe one day my mental state would deteriorate to such a degree that I would completely lose my mind or have a psychotic episode.
Let me say I have never had ANY psychotic tendencies. I have a history of self harm, but have NEVER attempted or planned suicide.
But sometimes (especially in the throes of a bad panic attack) I wonder if I will just get worse. (Catastrophising!!!) And it completely takes over my brain.
Does anyone else have these fears? If so, are there anythings you use to reassure yourself?
I am on cipralex right now. I am VERY sensitive to meds and was on 5mg for a few weeks and just bumped up to 7.5mg 10 days ago. I have felt an increase in overall anxiety the past couple of days and am wondering if it could be due to the increased dose.
But in any case...
am I alone here?
I know with health anxiety it's easy to fear things like cancer, or MS, or heart problems, etc (Believe me I have been there too, and am still there sometimes), but does anyone else panic about their mental health?
No horror stories please. Just looking for some reassurance or some sense that this is "normal" ...
-Dora