I am afraid of going to the doctor or the hospital. It's to the point that I'll probably die one day because I'm too afraid to go. I actually cried the other day because I had to go to the doctor. I almost didn't go in even though it was an important appointment. And wouldn't you know it, I didn't die and I didn't get taken away in an ambulance. But still, here I am fearing the doctor.

I am experiencing some health issues where I need to see a few different doctors now. An OB, cardiologist, and MFM. This is a nightmare for me but at the same time I view it as a lesson. It's proof that one day something will be wrong with me, and I will have to learn to accept that because we all have an expiration date. No one cheats death. I'm hoping to get over this fear and to get back to where I was before this all happened.